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Name : Neo Yizan, Sunny Age : 23 Location : Singapore Birthday : 8th June 1984 Zodiac Sign : Gemini Email : hollow_boi@hotmail.com |
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Name : Neo Yizan, Sunny Age : 23 Location : Singapore Birthday : 8th June 1984 Zodiac Sign : Gemini Email : hollow_boi@hotmail.com |
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Haha, so nice to be home again...As the title said, I have a half day off...The reason? I don't know either...Maybe they are planning something evil to practise on us? Hmmm...Whatever la, got off happy liao lor...Can come home blog blog...friendster friendster abit...
Booked out at about 12 plus plus...Then went to Jurong Point meet Guan Teong, he really shiok sia, friday come out then only need to go back tomorrow...So many days off sia...Haiz, SCDF, do so little during peace time then so much allowance... :p
Was with some platoon mates on the way to the shopping center, then Goh Wei Min (Jeffrey) got chance show you their photo, haha...He pay for my expenses playing the arcase...Haiz, so old liao still play arcade...No lah, just trying to kill sometime only...Fell in love with initial D le...Hahaha, really nice and realistic...Can say its the best driving game out in the market le...Watched "The Shaggy Dog" with Guan Teong...A nice movie, and it cost me $7.00... :( No money liao leh...
Come to think of it, when people say that its a small world, its a small world indeed! some of my platoon mates actually know my friends...Gives a quite a little bit of creep actually...It feels like we are all connected in a way or another...Haha
I miss you, but I don't think I can see you anymore...We seldom have chances to be at the same place at the same time...Hee, Hope you are doing well...Maybe patching up with ex boyfriend whom you hurted really much and regretted it will be good?
Alright alright, don't talk about relationship leh, it will just make me feel sick and tired...And painful...All sorts of feeling will just ooze out from inside...(DaMn!)
Going for deployment for 2 weeks tmr le, will try to find more chance to blog about my life~ Hope more people are reading?
Posted by Sunny @ 6:18 PM 
Hi all, Am back again from outing...So nice, known my friends for quite many years le, but still don't quite understand each other very well...But I think its different from now on...By the way, lets start off from where we went today ba...
First off, Went to Lavender as I need to get one of my uniform sew cause I getting my new badge on this coming monday's parade...So expensive, $3 leh...Then overheard the auntie talking to one customer...The rankshe selling so "fua"!!! E-mart selling only $0.45 for a rank then she selling at $1.50 per piece sia~!!! Thats enough for me to buy how many sia...
Haha, after that we have our lunch there, then we take cab to Raffles Place Funan IT mall, cause I heard that I can sell my PSP games there to trade in for new games...So we went there to walk around, at the same time, Wai Leong can shop for a new chair...
Then we sat at the Coffee Bean there to chat til like dinner time, then we continue over to Boat Quay to watch soccer and have dinner...Took some pictures together...I tell you, the food there is nice, but just abit too expansive...I think they just wanna chop the tourists sia...
Overall, we ate 6 dishes and it cost like $150 inclusive of drinks and GST...The service was good...And the match between Liverpool and Everton was not bad either...Then we went over to the riverside to sit and chat...We talked for like nearly 1 whole hour non-stop, about relationship and further improve the understanding within ourselves...Keke, seems like I can only talk about relationship ba...Thats one topic I am good at...
Well, heres the good stuff for some of you out there...Guess who I saw? Keke, I remembered that there was once while I was smoking behind our company line...I saw Ix Shen leaving the camp...Guess he came to take his IPPT test ba...Hmmm, well, nvm that...The shocking one is, I was about to take the lift back to my place, when the lift door opens, guess who I saw~~
Its Vincent Ng~! Haha...We were both so shack that we actually gave a jump with each other, Hmmm...Heard from my brother that Vincent Ng just move in...Don't tell you all where I live...If not his fans will surely come disturb him... :p LoL~
Thats about it ba...below is some pictures I took at Boat Quay...Well, Its nice to know that my friends are there for me to help me spend time rather than wasting time thinking about other things...Well, am not that sad le...Guess I am doing well although I still misses her really much...Guess she is having a very good time now ba...
blog next time when I book out ba...don't know when I coming out again cause I going into deployment again and the time we booking out is still not confirm yet...Well, chat with ya next time eh~Bye~~
Posted by Sunny @ 1:54 AM
Hmmm, can't get to sleep again...Is my life really that hopeless without you? Why am I loving so deeply? Were you really that good to me? All these, it doesn't matter...I just can't stop myself from loving you...
Have a good and happy life okie? Loves and Misses you still...Each and everyday, I will make a wish to the stars in the sky, for you to stay well, happy and successful...
Me? I don't ask for much...Infact, I don't ask for anything...Just want you to be happy...Don't think anybody can understand how I feel now...
I don't know how to explain the feeling that I am feeling now either...Just want time to stop...So that I won't forget the times when we were still together...
Posted by Sunny @ 2:15 AM
Well, here I am, just reach home only...Went out with Guan Teong and Wai Leong, Cheng you fly us kite again...Still say what everytime go for outing, the 3 of them is always there...And this is don't know the how many times he did that to us le...
Hee, quite a night well spent, instead of staying at home to think about this and that...I went out to bugis to eat steamboat with them, well, I just went there with my army friends after a 10km run at east coast last week...
Hmmm, just added another video into my friendster...Actually there is a meaning to them...The first one is by Guan Liang - Yue Ding...I remembered that before I got enlisted, she was at my house...We were sitting on my bed, chatting la...Then I ask her this, "Are you willing to wait for me for 2 long years?", She said "Yes" and we made a promise to each other...We hook our little fingers too...
the lyrics goes like this...
说好的三年不见面
用我们的爱把时间留住
你笑着说这是我们的考验我们的约定
就这样三年又过了
我还是回到这个地方
闭上眼等你的出现
空气中吻你的脸
我还记得我们的约定
一辈子幸福的约定
为你写的那首歌
他也偷偷的掉泪了
我比以前还更爱你了
连那风都笑我了
我想他会告诉你的我更爱你了
我想他会告诉你的
你会记得我们的约定
听着风我也笑了
他一定会告诉你的我更爱你了
if you can't read the words, just simply go to "View" on top and select "Encoding" then change the language to a suitable one...And the second song is Jay Chou - Qing Tian, that was the first song she ever sang it to me...I remembered it all...But now when I read the lyrics and all, I found that its actually a hint...A hint even before we started not long that our relationship will surely end this way...
Our love is really too weak to fight the distance we are apart from each other...Haiz...Thats why I said that my life is just a curse...My ex once gave my a ring...But before we broke up, it snapped and broke into two...Now, due to the time we couldn't have for each other, we broke off too...Keke, Is all this just a joke which God is playing on me? Or is it a test? A lesson which God wants to make me into a better and stronger person to face a greater challenge in life?
Well, I am who I am...I control my life, my destiny...I just wish that all these stops and I can have my quiet and simple life...I have limits and I think that he is playing abit overboard...I need rest, I want happiness...Ain't I fighting strong enough to achieve all that? Ain't I paying enough to earn all that I wanted? I just wanted to love and to be loved...Haiz...Nvm that le la...Its over anyway...Lets not think about it so much le..Won't want to get more white hair growing...Haha...As if...Its always easier to say than to do it...Well, drop me a testimonal or what to cheer me up a little maybe? haha, I don't mind having more guy or gal friends, my email is hollow_boi@hotmail.com...Feel free to email me to help if you want...
Oh, by the way, I think you very long never see Wai Leong liao right? Haha, show you some of his pic we took just recently when we go out...Anyway, thanks to all my friends who accompanied my through the time when I need them the most...Thank you guys really...Appreciate that you guys spare the time to read about my feelings...
Took a picture of him while waiting for seats to Fish & Co. and testing my camera at the time...
Took a picture of him again while waiting for the train back after steamboat meal...LoL~ New haircut... :X
Posted by Sunny @ 12:35 AM
Just got home from camp only...This whole week quite slack, nothing much to do...Had been training and training everyday to build up a nicer body...Haha, deployment can really bloat you up you know...
Next week going back to JGL aka Jurong Island for another 2 weeks deployment liao...Haiz, Eat liao sleep, sleep liao eat...for another 2 weeks leh...Infact, its until the day I ORD sia...Kaoz!
Hmmm, life now although is that little bit of lonely cause, we finally broke off 2 weeks ago and haven't been sending or receiving any smses from her anymore...Hope that she is enjoying her life and holiday now...Wishes for her happiness always...
Well, its just another chapter of my life...I am turning 22 years old this June...Man, feeling so old le...Still in the NS...Haiz...Have to really make plans for my future...It seems like there are just too many paths for me to take on...But just can't decide which way to take...
Its either I sign on to be a regular...(No time but more money~) Or going for further studies...(Don't have much confident plus I am not very young le)...Work and look for a nice girl to settle down...(Seems good but no $$~)...
Haiz, all of them has their own advantages and disadvantages...Thats why its so hard to decide...What am I gonna do? But one thing I am sure I have to do now, it is to get a driving license and get over the break up with her...
Well, thanks for coming back to read my blog eh, promise to write more about whats happening around me okie? Aiyah, mostly its about relationship la etc etc...I am a very EMOTIONAL person well you see? Keke...Well then, see you next time lor...Have a great day...
Posted by Sunny @ 6:27 PM
Hi all, must be quite shock to see me at home now right? (Look at the date of this entry and read my last post and you will understand)...Ya, I am enjoying my one day off at home now...
Will be booking in later at night by 2100 hours, sian man, can't wait to ORD sia, really no time for anything...All things I do have to rush...Why? Cause maybe it will make me not to think of you so much...
Gosh, hasn't been sleeing well since friday le, I think add up also don't have 24 hours ba...Well, Did nothing or went anywhere at all, just rotting at home for the whole day and waiting for the time to come for me to book in...
Life now sucks so much, got no friends with me, all busy their own stuff, go army ones go army, studying ones studying, working ones working...Haiz...Feeling kinda lonely somehow, I am a person who needs alot of attentions...
Hmmm, I miss my life before I went in the army so much, I have friends, family and most importantly...You...But now, it seems like I just lost it all...Friends busy with their stuff, family members also don't see them around much, then...Our relationship also like very jialat now...
I really don't have anywhere to go, anyone to turn to...Just feel so out of place everywhere I go...I really don't want to believe that our love is really so fragile...Can't take such test...I still can't get over all these...Its just like a time bomb set down inside my heart earlier and it just exploded not long ago like that...
Stress...I need love, I need company...But why isn't there anyone out there understands? I prayed, I begged...I did what I can...But it was all in vain...What can I do to direct your love, your heart and everything I had lost back?
Had been posting entries like this ever since the day I got enlisted...Is this a punishment? Or is it a test? Or maybe even a hint? to tell me that a am destined to be alone forever? No single soul will remember me? Remember the things I did...
All I got now is misery and more misery...Tell me what to do anyone? Is loving somebody really so hard? Is it why you gave up? What did I actually did to you? I tried correcting all the faults I did...But why can't you just accept them? Why can't I have a chance? Why can't I be the one who is there for you? Who listens to you? Whom shoulder you can rest your head on? Who you share your problems and happiness with? Who you hug and kiss? Who you show care and concern to? Who you love? who you cherish? who you trasure the moments together? Whom you appreciate each and everything I did for you? We are like a level up above strangers only now...you don't reply my message as frequently as you used to, you didn't pick up most of my calls, you don't message me anymore, not to say even call...Haha, do I really deserve all this? Just because I love you?
When will we start to know what is love? Freaking stressful now...Really don't feel like going on like this anymore...Just wish that there is a medicine that makes me forget each and every single thing I did, each and single person I know...Really going crazy soon le...Feel like a few more steps and I will go berserk...
Getting really short tempered and restless nowadays...How to carry on this kind of life?
Posted by Sunny @ 5:57 AM
Phew...Didn't sleep for the whole night since friday as I thought that I won't be going out on saturday...So I stayed up the whole night to play game...And waiting for her...Haha...
I don't want it to end just like that, I believe that our love is not so weak, we will certainly pull through all hardship and go through it together...Stress will not be a barrier between us...
Actually went to BBDC for a practise theory test, but haha, flunk it as I expected, but I will continue to work harder...Then after that went to meet Waileong and Guan Teong for outing (Man, so tired already)...
But suddenly Wei Chao jio last minute jio us go Johor play go-kart, Haha...The car there compared to the Genting ones are like Genting's kart like for small kids...Man, imagine I am driving at a maximum speed of 80km/h with that small one man size machine...Haha
Posted by Sunny @ 1:42 AM
Its been so long since i blog, don't even know whether people are still reading this or not, but its okie...Its just a place where i can leave all my bad or good memories behind...
Haiz...i feel so lost now...things aren't working the same way anymore...we seem to some strangers who have just met up at a street somewhere...everything seems to be so distant, so cold...haiz...i really dunno wat to do le...but i really like her alot...but does she? Haiz...
We have our own things to be busy about, and i really don't have that courage to face anymore conflicts anymore...Lots of quarrels, less hugs and kisses...Don't even have time to meet up with me when i booked out most of the time now...
Trust, Faith and Passion are 3 factors for Love.. but i seem to be losing one of them...TRUST. Haiz...Its not that i dun trust her anymore but, she seem to hid from me alot of things, i tried talking to her, but were all in vain, the more i will think, a imaginative and creative person is a miserable person indeed... :p
Finally, i decided to give up...We broke up...All becoz of me...i really hate myself for my stupidity? why cant i just learn to treasure? i feel like a piece of shit, a junk...I miss her. Her voice, her smile, her laughters, her tears, her everything...Just feel like shouting out loud...telling her how much i love and miss her...but can she really hear me anymore? fearing the consequences and the pain i will be in, I still love you deeply...Haiz...is there still love between us?
Posted by Sunny @ 2:15 AM
Haha, so nice to be home again...As the title said, I have a half day off...The reason? I don't know either...Maybe they are planning something evil to practise on us? Hmmm...Whatever la, got off happy liao lor...Can come home blog blog...friendster friendster abit...
Booked out at about 12 plus plus...Then went to Jurong Point meet Guan Teong, he really shiok sia, friday come out then only need to go back tomorrow...So many days off sia...Haiz, SCDF, do so little during peace time then so much allowance... :p
Was with some platoon mates on the way to the shopping center, then Goh Wei Min (Jeffrey) got chance show you their photo, haha...He pay for my expenses playing the arcase...Haiz, so old liao still play arcade...No lah, just trying to kill sometime only...Fell in love with initial D le...Hahaha, really nice and realistic...Can say its the best driving game out in the market le...Watched "The Shaggy Dog" with Guan Teong...A nice movie, and it cost me $7.00... :( No money liao leh...
Come to think of it, when people say that its a small world, its a small world indeed! some of my platoon mates actually know my friends...Gives a quite a little bit of creep actually...It feels like we are all connected in a way or another...Haha
I miss you, but I don't think I can see you anymore...We seldom have chances to be at the same place at the same time...Hee, Hope you are doing well...Maybe patching up with ex boyfriend whom you hurted really much and regretted it will be good?
Alright alright, don't talk about relationship leh, it will just make me feel sick and tired...And painful...All sorts of feeling will just ooze out from inside...(DaMn!)
Going for deployment for 2 weeks tmr le, will try to find more chance to blog about my life~ Hope more people are reading?
Posted by Sunny @ 6:18 PM
Hi all, Am back again from outing...So nice, known my friends for quite many years le, but still don't quite understand each other very well...But I think its different from now on...By the way, lets start off from where we went today ba...
First off, Went to Lavender as I need to get one of my uniform sew cause I getting my new badge on this coming monday's parade...So expensive, $3 leh...Then overheard the auntie talking to one customer...The rankshe selling so "fua"!!! E-mart selling only $0.45 for a rank then she selling at $1.50 per piece sia~!!! Thats enough for me to buy how many sia...
Haha, after that we have our lunch there, then we take cab to Raffles Place Funan IT mall, cause I heard that I can sell my PSP games there to trade in for new games...So we went there to walk around, at the same time, Wai Leong can shop for a new chair...
Then we sat at the Coffee Bean there to chat til like dinner time, then we continue over to Boat Quay to watch soccer and have dinner...Took some pictures together...I tell you, the food there is nice, but just abit too expansive...I think they just wanna chop the tourists sia...
Overall, we ate 6 dishes and it cost like $150 inclusive of drinks and GST...The service was good...And the match between Liverpool and Everton was not bad either...Then we went over to the riverside to sit and chat...We talked for like nearly 1 whole hour non-stop, about relationship and further improve the understanding within ourselves...Keke, seems like I can only talk about relationship ba...Thats one topic I am good at...
Well, heres the good stuff for some of you out there...Guess who I saw? Keke, I remembered that there was once while I was smoking behind our company line...I saw Ix Shen leaving the camp...Guess he came to take his IPPT test ba...Hmmm, well, nvm that...The shocking one is, I was about to take the lift back to my place, when the lift door opens, guess who I saw~~
Its Vincent Ng~! Haha...We were both so shack that we actually gave a jump with each other, Hmmm...Heard from my brother that Vincent Ng just move in...Don't tell you all where I live...If not his fans will surely come disturb him... :p LoL~
Thats about it ba...below is some pictures I took at Boat Quay...Well, Its nice to know that my friends are there for me to help me spend time rather than wasting time thinking about other things...Well, am not that sad le...Guess I am doing well although I still misses her really much...Guess she is having a very good time now ba...
blog next time when I book out ba...don't know when I coming out again cause I going into deployment again and the time we booking out is still not confirm yet...Well, chat with ya next time eh~Bye~~
Posted by Sunny @ 1:54 AM
Hmmm, can't get to sleep again...Is my life really that hopeless without you? Why am I loving so deeply? Were you really that good to me? All these, it doesn't matter...I just can't stop myself from loving you...
Have a good and happy life okie? Loves and Misses you still...Each and everyday, I will make a wish to the stars in the sky, for you to stay well, happy and successful...
Me? I don't ask for much...Infact, I don't ask for anything...Just want you to be happy...Don't think anybody can understand how I feel now...
I don't know how to explain the feeling that I am feeling now either...Just want time to stop...So that I won't forget the times when we were still together...
Posted by Sunny @ 2:15 AM
Well, here I am, just reach home only...Went out with Guan Teong and Wai Leong, Cheng you fly us kite again...Still say what everytime go for outing, the 3 of them is always there...And this is don't know the how many times he did that to us le...
Hee, quite a night well spent, instead of staying at home to think about this and that...I went out to bugis to eat steamboat with them, well, I just went there with my army friends after a 10km run at east coast last week...
Hmmm, just added another video into my friendster...Actually there is a meaning to them...The first one is by Guan Liang - Yue Ding...I remembered that before I got enlisted, she was at my house...We were sitting on my bed, chatting la...Then I ask her this, "Are you willing to wait for me for 2 long years?", She said "Yes" and we made a promise to each other...We hook our little fingers too...
the lyrics goes like this...
说好的三年不见面
用我们的爱把时间留住
你笑着说这是我们的考验我们的约定
就这样三年又过了
我还是回到这个地方
闭上眼等你的出现
空气中吻你的脸
我还记得我们的约定
一辈子幸福的约定
为你写的那首歌
他也偷偷的掉泪了
我比以前还更爱你了
连那风都笑我了
我想他会告诉你的我更爱你了
我想他会告诉你的
你会记得我们的约定
听着风我也笑了
他一定会告诉你的我更爱你了
if you can't read the words, just simply go to "View" on top and select "Encoding" then change the language to a suitable one...And the second song is Jay Chou - Qing Tian, that was the first song she ever sang it to me...I remembered it all...But now when I read the lyrics and all, I found that its actually a hint...A hint even before we started not long that our relationship will surely end this way...
Our love is really too weak to fight the distance we are apart from each other...Haiz...Thats why I said that my life is just a curse...My ex once gave my a ring...But before we broke up, it snapped and broke into two...Now, due to the time we couldn't have for each other, we broke off too...Keke, Is all this just a joke which God is playing on me? Or is it a test? A lesson which God wants to make me into a better and stronger person to face a greater challenge in life?
Well, I am who I am...I control my life, my destiny...I just wish that all these stops and I can have my quiet and simple life...I have limits and I think that he is playing abit overboard...I need rest, I want happiness...Ain't I fighting strong enough to achieve all that? Ain't I paying enough to earn all that I wanted? I just wanted to love and to be loved...Haiz...Nvm that le la...Its over anyway...Lets not think about it so much le..Won't want to get more white hair growing...Haha...As if...Its always easier to say than to do it...Well, drop me a testimonal or what to cheer me up a little maybe? haha, I don't mind having more guy or gal friends, my email is hollow_boi@hotmail.com...Feel free to email me to help if you want...
Oh, by the way, I think you very long never see Wai Leong liao right? Haha, show you some of his pic we took just recently when we go out...Anyway, thanks to all my friends who accompanied my through the time when I need them the most...Thank you guys really...Appreciate that you guys spare the time to read about my feelings...
Took a picture of him while waiting for seats to Fish & Co. and testing my camera at the time...
Took a picture of him again while waiting for the train back after steamboat meal...LoL~ New haircut... :X
Posted by Sunny @ 12:35 AM
Just got home from camp only...This whole week quite slack, nothing much to do...Had been training and training everyday to build up a nicer body...Haha, deployment can really bloat you up you know...
Next week going back to JGL aka Jurong Island for another 2 weeks deployment liao...Haiz, Eat liao sleep, sleep liao eat...for another 2 weeks leh...Infact, its until the day I ORD sia...Kaoz!
Hmmm, life now although is that little bit of lonely cause, we finally broke off 2 weeks ago and haven't been sending or receiving any smses from her anymore...Hope that she is enjoying her life and holiday now...Wishes for her happiness always...
Well, its just another chapter of my life...I am turning 22 years old this June...Man, feeling so old le...Still in the NS...Haiz...Have to really make plans for my future...It seems like there are just too many paths for me to take on...But just can't decide which way to take...
Its either I sign on to be a regular...(No time but more money~) Or going for further studies...(Don't have much confident plus I am not very young le)...Work and look for a nice girl to settle down...(Seems good but no $$~)...
Haiz, all of them has their own advantages and disadvantages...Thats why its so hard to decide...What am I gonna do? But one thing I am sure I have to do now, it is to get a driving license and get over the break up with her...
Well, thanks for coming back to read my blog eh, promise to write more about whats happening around me okie? Aiyah, mostly its about relationship la etc etc...I am a very EMOTIONAL person well you see? Keke...Well then, see you next time lor...Have a great day...
Posted by Sunny @ 6:27 PM
Hi all, must be quite shock to see me at home now right? (Look at the date of this entry and read my last post and you will understand)...Ya, I am enjoying my one day off at home now...
Will be booking in later at night by 2100 hours, sian man, can't wait to ORD sia, really no time for anything...All things I do have to rush...Why? Cause maybe it will make me not to think of you so much...
Gosh, hasn't been sleeing well since friday le, I think add up also don't have 24 hours ba...Well, Did nothing or went anywhere at all, just rotting at home for the whole day and waiting for the time to come for me to book in...
Life now sucks so much, got no friends with me, all busy their own stuff, go army ones go army, studying ones studying, working ones working...Haiz...Feeling kinda lonely somehow, I am a person who needs alot of attentions...
Hmmm, I miss my life before I went in the army so much, I have friends, family and most importantly...You...But now, it seems like I just lost it all...Friends busy with their stuff, family members also don't see them around much, then...Our relationship also like very jialat now...
I really don't have anywhere to go, anyone to turn to...Just feel so out of place everywhere I go...I really don't want to believe that our love is really so fragile...Can't take such test...I still can't get over all these...Its just like a time bomb set down inside my heart earlier and it just exploded not long ago like that...
Stress...I need love, I need company...But why isn't there anyone out there understands? I prayed, I begged...I did what I can...But it was all in vain...What can I do to direct your love, your heart and everything I had lost back?
Had been posting entries like this ever since the day I got enlisted...Is this a punishment? Or is it a test? Or maybe even a hint? to tell me that a am destined to be alone forever? No single soul will remember me? Remember the things I did...
All I got now is misery and more misery...Tell me what to do anyone? Is loving somebody really so hard? Is it why you gave up? What did I actually did to you? I tried correcting all the faults I did...But why can't you just accept them? Why can't I have a chance? Why can't I be the one who is there for you? Who listens to you? Whom shoulder you can rest your head on? Who you share your problems and happiness with? Who you hug and kiss? Who you show care and concern to? Who you love? who you cherish? who you trasure the moments together? Whom you appreciate each and everything I did for you? We are like a level up above strangers only now...you don't reply my message as frequently as you used to, you didn't pick up most of my calls, you don't message me anymore, not to say even call...Haha, do I really deserve all this? Just because I love you?
When will we start to know what is love? Freaking stressful now...Really don't feel like going on like this anymore...Just wish that there is a medicine that makes me forget each and every single thing I did, each and single person I know...Really going crazy soon le...Feel like a few more steps and I will go berserk...
Getting really short tempered and restless nowadays...How to carry on this kind of life?
Posted by Sunny @ 5:57 AM
Phew...Didn't sleep for the whole night since friday as I thought that I won't be going out on saturday...So I stayed up the whole night to play game...And waiting for her...Haha...
I don't want it to end just like that, I believe that our love is not so weak, we will certainly pull through all hardship and go through it together...Stress will not be a barrier between us...
Actually went to BBDC for a practise theory test, but haha, flunk it as I expected, but I will continue to work harder...Then after that went to meet Waileong and Guan Teong for outing (Man, so tired already)...
But suddenly Wei Chao jio last minute jio us go Johor play go-kart, Haha...The car there compared to the Genting ones are like Genting's kart like for small kids...Man, imagine I am driving at a maximum speed of 80km/h with that small one man size machine...Haha
Posted by Sunny @ 1:42 AM
Its been so long since i blog, don't even know whether people are still reading this or not, but its okie...Its just a place where i can leave all my bad or good memories behind...
Haiz...i feel so lost now...things aren't working the same way anymore...we seem to some strangers who have just met up at a street somewhere...everything seems to be so distant, so cold...haiz...i really dunno wat to do le...but i really like her alot...but does she? Haiz...
We have our own things to be busy about, and i really don't have that courage to face anymore conflicts anymore...Lots of quarrels, less hugs and kisses...Don't even have time to meet up with me when i booked out most of the time now...
Trust, Faith and Passion are 3 factors for Love.. but i seem to be losing one of them...TRUST. Haiz...Its not that i dun trust her anymore but, she seem to hid from me alot of things, i tried talking to her, but were all in vain, the more i will think, a imaginative and creative person is a miserable person indeed... :p
Finally, i decided to give up...We broke up...All becoz of me...i really hate myself for my stupidity? why cant i just learn to treasure? i feel like a piece of shit, a junk...I miss her. Her voice, her smile, her laughters, her tears, her everything...Just feel like shouting out loud...telling her how much i love and miss her...but can she really hear me anymore? fearing the consequences and the pain i will be in, I still love you deeply...Haiz...is there still love between us?
Posted by Sunny @ 2:15 AM
