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Name : Neo Yizan, Sunny Age : 23 Location : Singapore Birthday : 8th June 1984 Zodiac Sign : Gemini Email : hollow_boi@hotmail.com |
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Name : Neo Yizan, Sunny Age : 23 Location : Singapore Birthday : 8th June 1984 Zodiac Sign : Gemini Email : hollow_boi@hotmail.com |
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Okie, first of all, stay at home for the whole day, was too lazy to go out le, sorry wen jing~~
Hmmm, what to blog? Got like nothing to say...Oh yah, by the way guys, I am not assuming anything, its all true man, bow to my sense of curiousity, I am not totally stupid to be played around with ya?
Haha, well...at least now the truth is finally double, even triple confirmed le...I can really let it go, just threw away alot of unwanted stuff too...Well, I spoilt my cupboard in the process~~~ The stupid drawer is stuck and I pull it too hard...The whole piece of thing just came off like that...
Cool...Haha, just wanna say, going into army can really change a person's life, 1 more year to go~ ORD LOH...Haha!!
Just thinking will I still hve the courage to accept any relationship into my life? I don't even dare think about it, "trust" has been breached again and again...Hmmm...
Posted by Sunny @ 9:46 PM 
Woke up at about 9 plus again today, although slept late/early last black sky...Hmm, so nice to see messages in your phone when you check it in the morning don't you agree? It just brighten up your day even though you don't know who knocks...
Well, did some net surfing while stone-ing in my room...*Craps, must keep on tight budget liao, this month I can spend only another 100 bucks and thats it...The rest is for my mummy to keep, I am actually a very filial son, well, at least be the best child in this family...
Hmmm, then receive your message...telling me not to assume all those things, but all I can say is, I don't want to believe it either...But its like so many things just happened, don't want to make you feel bad, so I am not blogging much about those...
Its not that I wanna think "TOO MUCH", its like I won't rest until I finds out the truth, thats me...Curiousness, and when I am curious, I will feel so uncomfortable and dying to know the truth...Since you are not saying...Clever me found his blog, well...Thats enough for me to believe now...All I want to say is, treat him truthfully, don't mess around with feelings...It hurts...really hurts...For now, just be friends, plain friends and make you hints or whatever obvious enough to understand, I don't like playing guessing games...
Well, back to myself...Erm, life is not very good for me for this few weeks...or shall I say months? WTH, This year la~!! Hmmm, whatever, just a bad year...Tons and tons of shit just fell on me like an "Arti Wave"...Its tiring, to face them or run from them? "Arti Arti Arti~~~!!!!"
Well, for r/s base, I face facts...for f/s base, I love all of you~!!!, for financial base, Hmmm, still can improve ba, for career base, well, am looting and being looted well haha...For future planning base, still working on it...Man~~~Tiring~!!! @_@
Just want to tell myself, today is the day I really give up my love for you, today is the day I give up crying for you, today is the day I think of you just once last time, today is the day I lock all memories away, today is the day I pray for blessings, today is the day I walk this path alone, today is the day...What the hell~~I AM BOOKING IN TOMORROW~!!!! OMG, the block off is so short!!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Posted by Sunny @ 1:14 PM
Yahoo~~~Today so happy, Suan Teck and Jun Qiu's birthday, so I meet up yet again with ITE friends~! Love them so very the much man...With them, there will always be endless chats and trouble free~~Weee~~
To start off with, woke up at 9 to prepare as we are meeting at 1PM to hunt for presents, then was actually having breakfast outside, cause piggy mother still sleeping, so I didn't wait for her to wake up and cook, some more eating maggi mee is like so boring...
But then, thanks to my deeli dali skills, still manage to keep myself busy until I actually forgets the time, no lah..Haha, was actually waiting for my PSP to be fully charged before going out...
Hmmm, but then Bon called, saying she will be late(Man, 果然一山还有一山高<-chinese words)...So I went to JP to walk around while waiting for her to come, haha..Lucky, I finally found a small travel speaker to bring into camp...got it for $25, quite cheap liao...
Met her then faster go to Orchard liao, cause we thought we are already late while mouse is already there...But when we reach, mouse was with her boyfriend...touring around outside I think...Then whats more...Sean is still waiting for cab~!!(果然一山还有一山高还有一山更高<-chinese words again)...Haha...Spend the whole afternoon hunting for presents...In the end, we start looking for things for our own...Haha...
Really sorry, seriously, can't find anything nice to get for you guys...Then met up with Ah Qiu, Teck and Bon's boyfriend at about 5 plus plus...Then went over to the new cathy cinema behind Plaza Sing...
Watched Eight Below...Very NICE & TOUCHY sia~~~Shall go watch with your love ones...So that you can hug together and cry~~ Haha...Then after that went over to cafe cartel to have our dinner only at 9 plus plus...
Don't wanna keep dragging the blog, its like so long everytime I blog...So I think I shall stop here le...Below are some pictures I took during the outing...Will be posting more in the gallery when mouse sent me all the pictures...Stay tune to it ba~
Posted by Sunny @ 3:08 AM
Haiyoo...What a day, woke up at about 2 plus plus in the noon, then message ah goh to ask him whether wanna pei me go Funan IT mall to sell off my PSP games, but he didn't reply...+.-
Then to sebas, he outside with his friend...Argh~~ I am so late...So decided to wait abit to see whether do I feel like going out or not...
Watch "Full Metal Alchemist", finally Steven returns me le...Then bought anime yesterday, "Tenjho Tenge"...Don't know the story yet, but since geek recommended it, I think it would be nice ba...
Hoho...Going out for a stroll after I bath later, maybe at 8.30pm to jurong walk walk see see...Hmmm, til now still haven't hear anything from ah teck leh...don't know tomorrow how...
Maybe call bon bon to see she bought the presents liao mah...Haha
Posted by Sunny @ 7:49 PM
What a day for me...Last night book in back to camp for totally nothing, slept there and got another few more bites by miss mossy...And man, you won't believe how much they love me...My section got 7 men, and none of them got kissed except for me...Yeah~ They love me alright...Whole body is itching since last week...
Must really bring some mosquito coil in to smoke them outta my territory~Time to show them whose boss... >:
Well...Back to topic, slept for the night...then wake up, again...Physical Training...Our commander make us do 7 full sets of chin-ups then come the 3 rounds sprinting around the carpark...Whoosh, you don't wanna know how painful is that...
After PT, breakfast, had some bun and a chicken pie, then went back to bunk...Whole morning nothing to do totally...And whats more? I started this policy with my gang...Who ever caught smoking from this week on will be fine $10, we can only smoke outside camp...Well, its a quit smoking campaign, haha...you shall see how funny they look...Well, I am proud to say, today is my 12 days without my best friend...
Miss them so much...But nah, had to cut down on them...Hmmm, feel like going back to camp, at home, got nothing to do, nobody to talk to...whats more...I miss her even more back at home...Sheezz, when will this pain stops? I hate this...Will we still have any chance at all? If I tell her my feelings for her never change since the day we broke off...Will she be touched?
Ha...Better don't think about it ba...Just hope that she is happy now...Hope that God will send my good night kisses to her everyday...Opps, gone outta topic again, ermmm, after that in the afternoon, we had this stupid stimulation game on POI training, the intelligence group created a game sort of look like Counter-Strike...Then spent like 1 to 2 hours playing deathmatches with my friends rather than doing the stimulation test....
Total bullshit...While on my way home, I thought I was on the wrong bus, Haha, wonder what is happening to me, don't seem to concentrate on anything I do when I think of her...Well, actually planned on drinking again tonight, but gotta have some self control, I can't spend money like that...whats more, keep drinking like that won't do me any good either...
Good luck for my practical tomorrow~~Chop Chop Chop....
Posted by Sunny @ 12:55 AM
It defitnately sucks to have to book in tonight, especially I just book out LAST NIGHT!!!! Actually its quite okie with me for not booking out anymore...I don't seems to have any reason for coming out also...The color of my sky is always grey since the day you left...I live for noone...Although I have to put up a strong front infront of everybody...It really still hurts inside...
Well, this is my block off actually...Just look at the last time I blog~~I am confined for 7 days!!! Inside that freaking Maju Camp~~~~Terrorist!!! Bomb it when I am not there~!!! Please....Hahaha
Well, yesterday is quite a nice day though, first, its book out, then Pay finally came(This one month feels like 10 years man), lastly...Its my buddy's birthday...Looks like there is quite a few of my friends who are April babies~
Went to...yah...Drink again...cut down on smoking but started to drink alot, hmmmm...Scared tummy comes out...But maybe thats another way to keep me from thinking about her...Miss you so much still~~
Was so happy actually that she called last night, had been so long since we chat on the phone, well...Had quite a nice talk...Finally we talked about things that we never talked before...
Nevermind that, well...the pub is located in chinatown, just beside "The one KTV", its a nice place...And the waitress there is so freaking friendly, beautiful and the service is superb!!! Well...kinda had a small tiny crash on her though...Haha...
Next time must bring Liang go there because that waitress looks like someone else...\(^-^)/~OLEY Haha....Well, took some pictures with my platoon mates...learn some new games with dice...next time got chance then teach you guys ba...
Looking forward for Good Friday...can see my ITE friends again, having another small gathering before its suan teck (White Hair) & Ah Qiu (Ball Ball) brithday~~still don't know where to go yet leh...Haha
Posted by Sunny @ 2:30 PM
Hi all, feeling kinda sad as tomorrow must go back camp liao, some more is early in the morning must wake up liao...Haiz...then its another 2 days of tough long hours work...
But nevermind, pay day is coming, then block leave is also coming...LoL~~ finally first time they set our offs on a long holiday just nice the pay is coming, can finally buy some new clothes le, but have to save up also...
Woke up quite late today, about 1:34PM if I am not wrong, then went online to find people to chat, and spend the afternoon meeting her, have to return her some things and take back some of my stuff too...
So nice that it rain, God finally created something nice for me, another few minutes with her, hee...Didn't talk much, don't know what to say to her...Feeling kinda weird and nervous around her now...
so long never see her le, she slim down le, look even more beautiful...Have to learn to control my feelings for her le, although we already break off liao, but I still keep telling her how I feel, how much I love and miss her...What if one day she ignore me because I keep remind her of all these...
Hmmm, thats all...had been busy around at home, surfing the net, updating friendster and blog plus rearranging my room...Have to come up with a budget chart for a new computer and some new furnitures to add into my room...
Well, something funny to share...Look at the pictrure below...Are you seeing doubles? Haha, took this quite long ago le, but forget to take it out to upload...Some freaky friends I have...Haha
Posted by Sunny @ 10:48 PM
Yeah man, finally book out loh~~ Man, deployment starts liao...1 more week and my Platoon Commander is leaving us le...Hmmm, hope life for us now will be easier ba? Second year soldiers liao leh...Still treat us like Bloody recruits...No, its bloody recruit first class...
Haha, new specs came in also...joint us for this deployment, then we teach them how to eat snake, how to have fun, how to fish, how to 'DRIVE' yes, we even set up a driving center there~~HoHoho...
Kinda relax down le, thanks to so many friends accompany me through such painful period of my life, always there to support me...Although spending so much money to drink and eat together enjoying ourselves...Thanks...Promise to treat you guys when I get my allowance...Can't wait for the first of May sia...Money money money moeny~~
hmmm, went out just now to watch Ice Age 2, nice show, only that its abit too short...no choice, cartoons are like that...Been thinking alot about my future alot lately...
Regret so many things also, regret going into ITE, should had went into the army...I am not young le, just break up with girlfriend some more...whats left of me? such a miracle I still live...Haha, damn God, Me Neo yizan won't give up or die so easily, I curse you for giving me such ugly life...
I don't believe in any bull shit god anymore...Where is he when I need him the most? I pray to him, I go on my knees to him...and yet, he left me alone slowly witting away..."Seeing is believing", thats my stand from now on...unless he appear to me...if not...I will never do any stupid things to make a fool outta myself anymore...
its time I grow up, love to me, is not important anymore...what is important is my career and my future...my experience changed my thinkings..."no money, no honey" its true, human are ugly money craving and materialistic animals, so what if you have a true heart loving her? it can't buy you her love back...Haha...
Truly, there is no happy ever after in this world...Neo yizan already wake up from his sleep...being a better and successful man is my goal...hope that I can motivate myself enough to quit smoking first...
That mark the start of my journey of achieving what I want in life...will be posting again soon...Take care, see you soon~~
Do I miss and love you still? of cause I do...haha...But you won't care...So I will prove you wrong to let me go...
Posted by Sunny @ 11:26 PM
Okie, first of all, stay at home for the whole day, was too lazy to go out le, sorry wen jing~~
Hmmm, what to blog? Got like nothing to say...Oh yah, by the way guys, I am not assuming anything, its all true man, bow to my sense of curiousity, I am not totally stupid to be played around with ya?
Haha, well...at least now the truth is finally double, even triple confirmed le...I can really let it go, just threw away alot of unwanted stuff too...Well, I spoilt my cupboard in the process~~~ The stupid drawer is stuck and I pull it too hard...The whole piece of thing just came off like that...
Cool...Haha, just wanna say, going into army can really change a person's life, 1 more year to go~ ORD LOH...Haha!!
Just thinking will I still hve the courage to accept any relationship into my life? I don't even dare think about it, "trust" has been breached again and again...Hmmm...
Posted by Sunny @ 9:46 PM
Woke up at about 9 plus again today, although slept late/early last black sky...Hmm, so nice to see messages in your phone when you check it in the morning don't you agree? It just brighten up your day even though you don't know who knocks...
Well, did some net surfing while stone-ing in my room...*Craps, must keep on tight budget liao, this month I can spend only another 100 bucks and thats it...The rest is for my mummy to keep, I am actually a very filial son, well, at least be the best child in this family...
Hmmm, then receive your message...telling me not to assume all those things, but all I can say is, I don't want to believe it either...But its like so many things just happened, don't want to make you feel bad, so I am not blogging much about those...
Its not that I wanna think "TOO MUCH", its like I won't rest until I finds out the truth, thats me...Curiousness, and when I am curious, I will feel so uncomfortable and dying to know the truth...Since you are not saying...Clever me found his blog, well...Thats enough for me to believe now...All I want to say is, treat him truthfully, don't mess around with feelings...It hurts...really hurts...For now, just be friends, plain friends and make you hints or whatever obvious enough to understand, I don't like playing guessing games...
Well, back to myself...Erm, life is not very good for me for this few weeks...or shall I say months? WTH, This year la~!! Hmmm, whatever, just a bad year...Tons and tons of shit just fell on me like an "Arti Wave"...Its tiring, to face them or run from them? "Arti Arti Arti~~~!!!!"
Well, for r/s base, I face facts...for f/s base, I love all of you~!!!, for financial base, Hmmm, still can improve ba, for career base, well, am looting and being looted well haha...For future planning base, still working on it...Man~~~Tiring~!!! @_@
Just want to tell myself, today is the day I really give up my love for you, today is the day I give up crying for you, today is the day I think of you just once last time, today is the day I lock all memories away, today is the day I pray for blessings, today is the day I walk this path alone, today is the day...What the hell~~I AM BOOKING IN TOMORROW~!!!! OMG, the block off is so short!!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Posted by Sunny @ 1:14 PM
Yahoo~~~Today so happy, Suan Teck and Jun Qiu's birthday, so I meet up yet again with ITE friends~! Love them so very the much man...With them, there will always be endless chats and trouble free~~Weee~~
To start off with, woke up at 9 to prepare as we are meeting at 1PM to hunt for presents, then was actually having breakfast outside, cause piggy mother still sleeping, so I didn't wait for her to wake up and cook, some more eating maggi mee is like so boring...
But then, thanks to my deeli dali skills, still manage to keep myself busy until I actually forgets the time, no lah..Haha, was actually waiting for my PSP to be fully charged before going out...
Hmmm, but then Bon called, saying she will be late(Man, 果然一山还有一山高<-chinese words)...So I went to JP to walk around while waiting for her to come, haha..Lucky, I finally found a small travel speaker to bring into camp...got it for $25, quite cheap liao...
Met her then faster go to Orchard liao, cause we thought we are already late while mouse is already there...But when we reach, mouse was with her boyfriend...touring around outside I think...Then whats more...Sean is still waiting for cab~!!(果然一山还有一山高还有一山更高<-chinese words again)...Haha...Spend the whole afternoon hunting for presents...In the end, we start looking for things for our own...Haha...
Really sorry, seriously, can't find anything nice to get for you guys...Then met up with Ah Qiu, Teck and Bon's boyfriend at about 5 plus plus...Then went over to the new cathy cinema behind Plaza Sing...
Watched Eight Below...Very NICE & TOUCHY sia~~~Shall go watch with your love ones...So that you can hug together and cry~~ Haha...Then after that went over to cafe cartel to have our dinner only at 9 plus plus...
Don't wanna keep dragging the blog, its like so long everytime I blog...So I think I shall stop here le...Below are some pictures I took during the outing...Will be posting more in the gallery when mouse sent me all the pictures...Stay tune to it ba~
Posted by Sunny @ 3:08 AM
Haiyoo...What a day, woke up at about 2 plus plus in the noon, then message ah goh to ask him whether wanna pei me go Funan IT mall to sell off my PSP games, but he didn't reply...+.-
Then to sebas, he outside with his friend...Argh~~ I am so late...So decided to wait abit to see whether do I feel like going out or not...
Watch "Full Metal Alchemist", finally Steven returns me le...Then bought anime yesterday, "Tenjho Tenge"...Don't know the story yet, but since geek recommended it, I think it would be nice ba...
Hoho...Going out for a stroll after I bath later, maybe at 8.30pm to jurong walk walk see see...Hmmm, til now still haven't hear anything from ah teck leh...don't know tomorrow how...
Maybe call bon bon to see she bought the presents liao mah...Haha
Posted by Sunny @ 7:49 PM
What a day for me...Last night book in back to camp for totally nothing, slept there and got another few more bites by miss mossy...And man, you won't believe how much they love me...My section got 7 men, and none of them got kissed except for me...Yeah~ They love me alright...Whole body is itching since last week...
Must really bring some mosquito coil in to smoke them outta my territory~Time to show them whose boss... >:
Well...Back to topic, slept for the night...then wake up, again...Physical Training...Our commander make us do 7 full sets of chin-ups then come the 3 rounds sprinting around the carpark...Whoosh, you don't wanna know how painful is that...
After PT, breakfast, had some bun and a chicken pie, then went back to bunk...Whole morning nothing to do totally...And whats more? I started this policy with my gang...Who ever caught smoking from this week on will be fine $10, we can only smoke outside camp...Well, its a quit smoking campaign, haha...you shall see how funny they look...Well, I am proud to say, today is my 12 days without my best friend...
Miss them so much...But nah, had to cut down on them...Hmmm, feel like going back to camp, at home, got nothing to do, nobody to talk to...whats more...I miss her even more back at home...Sheezz, when will this pain stops? I hate this...Will we still have any chance at all? If I tell her my feelings for her never change since the day we broke off...Will she be touched?
Ha...Better don't think about it ba...Just hope that she is happy now...Hope that God will send my good night kisses to her everyday...Opps, gone outta topic again, ermmm, after that in the afternoon, we had this stupid stimulation game on POI training, the intelligence group created a game sort of look like Counter-Strike...Then spent like 1 to 2 hours playing deathmatches with my friends rather than doing the stimulation test....
Total bullshit...While on my way home, I thought I was on the wrong bus, Haha, wonder what is happening to me, don't seem to concentrate on anything I do when I think of her...Well, actually planned on drinking again tonight, but gotta have some self control, I can't spend money like that...whats more, keep drinking like that won't do me any good either...
Good luck for my practical tomorrow~~Chop Chop Chop....
Posted by Sunny @ 12:55 AM
It defitnately sucks to have to book in tonight, especially I just book out LAST NIGHT!!!! Actually its quite okie with me for not booking out anymore...I don't seems to have any reason for coming out also...The color of my sky is always grey since the day you left...I live for noone...Although I have to put up a strong front infront of everybody...It really still hurts inside...
Well, this is my block off actually...Just look at the last time I blog~~I am confined for 7 days!!! Inside that freaking Maju Camp~~~~Terrorist!!! Bomb it when I am not there~!!! Please....Hahaha
Well, yesterday is quite a nice day though, first, its book out, then Pay finally came(This one month feels like 10 years man), lastly...Its my buddy's birthday...Looks like there is quite a few of my friends who are April babies~
Went to...yah...Drink again...cut down on smoking but started to drink alot, hmmmm...Scared tummy comes out...But maybe thats another way to keep me from thinking about her...Miss you so much still~~
Was so happy actually that she called last night, had been so long since we chat on the phone, well...Had quite a nice talk...Finally we talked about things that we never talked before...
Nevermind that, well...the pub is located in chinatown, just beside "The one KTV", its a nice place...And the waitress there is so freaking friendly, beautiful and the service is superb!!! Well...kinda had a small tiny crash on her though...Haha...
Next time must bring Liang go there because that waitress looks like someone else...\(^-^)/~OLEY Haha....Well, took some pictures with my platoon mates...learn some new games with dice...next time got chance then teach you guys ba...
Looking forward for Good Friday...can see my ITE friends again, having another small gathering before its suan teck (White Hair) & Ah Qiu (Ball Ball) brithday~~still don't know where to go yet leh...Haha
Posted by Sunny @ 2:30 PM
Hi all, feeling kinda sad as tomorrow must go back camp liao, some more is early in the morning must wake up liao...Haiz...then its another 2 days of tough long hours work...
But nevermind, pay day is coming, then block leave is also coming...LoL~~ finally first time they set our offs on a long holiday just nice the pay is coming, can finally buy some new clothes le, but have to save up also...
Woke up quite late today, about 1:34PM if I am not wrong, then went online to find people to chat, and spend the afternoon meeting her, have to return her some things and take back some of my stuff too...
So nice that it rain, God finally created something nice for me, another few minutes with her, hee...Didn't talk much, don't know what to say to her...Feeling kinda weird and nervous around her now...
so long never see her le, she slim down le, look even more beautiful...Have to learn to control my feelings for her le, although we already break off liao, but I still keep telling her how I feel, how much I love and miss her...What if one day she ignore me because I keep remind her of all these...
Hmmm, thats all...had been busy around at home, surfing the net, updating friendster and blog plus rearranging my room...Have to come up with a budget chart for a new computer and some new furnitures to add into my room...
Well, something funny to share...Look at the pictrure below...Are you seeing doubles? Haha, took this quite long ago le, but forget to take it out to upload...Some freaky friends I have...Haha
Posted by Sunny @ 10:48 PM
Yeah man, finally book out loh~~ Man, deployment starts liao...1 more week and my Platoon Commander is leaving us le...Hmmm, hope life for us now will be easier ba? Second year soldiers liao leh...Still treat us like Bloody recruits...No, its bloody recruit first class...
Haha, new specs came in also...joint us for this deployment, then we teach them how to eat snake, how to have fun, how to fish, how to 'DRIVE' yes, we even set up a driving center there~~HoHoho...
Kinda relax down le, thanks to so many friends accompany me through such painful period of my life, always there to support me...Although spending so much money to drink and eat together enjoying ourselves...Thanks...Promise to treat you guys when I get my allowance...Can't wait for the first of May sia...Money money money moeny~~
hmmm, went out just now to watch Ice Age 2, nice show, only that its abit too short...no choice, cartoons are like that...Been thinking alot about my future alot lately...
Regret so many things also, regret going into ITE, should had went into the army...I am not young le, just break up with girlfriend some more...whats left of me? such a miracle I still live...Haha, damn God, Me Neo yizan won't give up or die so easily, I curse you for giving me such ugly life...
I don't believe in any bull shit god anymore...Where is he when I need him the most? I pray to him, I go on my knees to him...and yet, he left me alone slowly witting away..."Seeing is believing", thats my stand from now on...unless he appear to me...if not...I will never do any stupid things to make a fool outta myself anymore...
its time I grow up, love to me, is not important anymore...what is important is my career and my future...my experience changed my thinkings..."no money, no honey" its true, human are ugly money craving and materialistic animals, so what if you have a true heart loving her? it can't buy you her love back...Haha...
Truly, there is no happy ever after in this world...Neo yizan already wake up from his sleep...being a better and successful man is my goal...hope that I can motivate myself enough to quit smoking first...
That mark the start of my journey of achieving what I want in life...will be posting again soon...Take care, see you soon~~
Do I miss and love you still? of cause I do...haha...But you won't care...So I will prove you wrong to let me go...
Posted by Sunny @ 11:26 PM
