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Name : Neo Yizan, Sunny Age : 23 Location : Singapore Birthday : 8th June 1984 Zodiac Sign : Gemini Email : hollow_boi@hotmail.com |
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Name : Neo Yizan, Sunny Age : 23 Location : Singapore Birthday : 8th June 1984 Zodiac Sign : Gemini Email : hollow_boi@hotmail.com |
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Please...Go back deep into my heart and go hide somewhere inside my head...don't let my memories find you...Feel like banging my head on the wall until I forget everything...
SO frustrating now...Shit, why must everything he said be so accurate? I can't seem to control my anger, can't seem to control myself from thinking and thinking...Lost control of myself totally...
Tried to sleep, but can't...Whole body very hot, very angry...Told myself to let it go, but you know..That me inside doesn't want to lose...Personality splitting...Demon and Angel forming in me...
Time heals? Fuck time then...No matter how long it takes, she will always be with you...It will just be taken over by the other...So maybe that proofs that you can't forget one until you found another one...Thats my conclusion...
What the FUCK did I did wrong to you? Time brought us apart, I thought our love were strong all along...I TRUSTED you...I finally TRUSTED you...And there I got this kinda treatment...FUCK Fairness, is it fair for me then? To have my girlfriend snatched away while I was away in the army...
CURSE MYSELF...CURSE MY JUDGEMENTS...Seem like I always pick the wrong one...HAhahaa...So funny of me to type like this...I am once again falling in between Forgiveness and Hatred...Freaking memories, I hope I forgets them soon...
Whats the point of remembering all those things we done in the past? You won't come back...Hmmmmm, what am I doing...Sorry, just wanna vent my anger out, maybe it helps myself a little? ahhaha, feeling better now...Sorry for all those commotion on top...Can't just ignore them...
All I wanna say is I haven't forgot...SO much things she said, it all still in my mind...Be my bride eh...
Posted by Sunny @ 2:12 AM 
Hai, don't know why...Kinda sad this few days, maybe is after seeing your new msn nick ba...Btw, went for my cryo again today, when I reach the lobby, I tot theres a outbreak of some serious virus, all of them wearing this funny jumpsuit type of clothes then cover their mouth...
Have to question me and register liao then let me in, some more I am half an hour late for my appointment liao...Haha, I like cryo alot, and its getting more and more painful each time...Guess its healing soon ba, the root is being forced out more each time they freeze it...
Hmmm, just wanna let you know...I let you go because I love you, and I love you still...So please, I won't want you to become like this...Reputation to a lady is important, so don't use that kinda nick, although it may not mean the way I am thinking...But its really not very nice...Love yourself before you can love others...
我一直坐在咖啡厅的角落
没有人发现我还在难过
其实早就已经忘了怎么说
就算再怎么舍不得
你还是走了
我还不想承认这事实
怎么会变成这个样子
没有了
我真的什么都没有了
就象一个废人
回家的路上我哭了
眼泪再一次崩溃了
无能为力这样走着
再也不敢骄傲奢求了
我还能够说些什么
我还能够做些什么
我好希望你会听见
因为爱你我让你走了
我让你走了baby
我一直坐在咖啡厅的角落
没有人发现我还在难过
其实早就已经忘了怎么说
就算再怎么舍不得
你还是走了
我还不想承认这事实
怎么会变成这个样子
没有了
我真的什么都没有了
就象一个废人
回家的路上我哭了
眼泪再一次崩溃了
无能为力这样走着
再也不敢骄傲奢求了
我还能够说些什么
我还能够做些什么
我好希望你会听见
因为爱你我让你走了
回家的路上我哭了
眼泪再一次崩溃了
无能为力这样走着
再也不敢骄傲奢求了
我还能够说些什么
我还能够做些什么
我好希望你会听见
因为爱你我让你走了
我让你走了baby
Remember this, I love you...thats why I let you go...And because I trust him to take great care of you, not for you to become like that...You are not that kinda girl to act like this...Hope you understand what I trying to convey...Will always be here for you, as a friend, as an ex and as an elder brother... :)
Posted by Sunny @ 10:54 PM
Hai~~~ At home so sian, I rather go back camp leh...Nothing to do, nowhere to go, at least in camp got friends to chit chat time pass faster there, outside...Keep sticking myself to the computer only...
Went for fortune telling at Boon Lay, it was my grand mother's friend, whereby the medium try to invite god to possess him...He said I this few weeks must try to keep my pocket tight, cozz near future, I will need the money for something important...Then ask me to control my emotion don't keep getting angry over small stuff, then he start mubbling something I don't understand...Saying my road is very hard, very rocky...So everything must take it lightly, stay strong, because in my previous life, I do alot of bad things, so have to pay back in this life...
WTF, I can't stop myself from doing bad things in the pass right~!? Why shouldn't they learn to forgive and forgets too? Then he use this paint bursh to dot and red dot inbetween my forehead, then use this seal thingy to chop a seal on the back of my shirt...
Wow, he quite skillful sia, very accurate, he even ask me not to rush into things, slowly slowly cozz my love line is not here yet, I may have lost someone important, but he say one day, I will meet up with this very long lost contact friend, and start a very nice story with her...Hahaha, Then ask me not to wait for her, find her instead...
I was like thinking...How? Hahaha, then this silly sister of mine, so cute, she still owe me a birthday present, then while paying, she found that her account not enough money liao...Then she called me to transfer her money...Hhaha, might as well I go buy the thing myself right? LoL~!!!
Posted by Sunny @ 5:18 PM
So many things I wanna tell you, so much so much I haven't finish...Time pull us apart...And yet I have so much time now...Hahaha, what a joke right? I had alot alot of things I wanna say everytime when we speak, but I know I can't...I have to keep them inside and seal them up...Feeling Envious, Jealous, Terrible, angry at myself for being weak and fragile, why can't I just look forward? They say Germinis are tempremental, but am I such kind? Maybe an exception? Hmmm...One can't explain why one's love is so so so strong, still staying strong even though there is no results for such persuade anymore...I don't wanna break up a perfect relationship again, but I know even if I want, I can't...Got nowhere to throw all those emotions, so maybe heres the place...
Hmmm, its another brand new day tomorrow, a day closer to ORD, a day closer to my new realtionship and finally a day closer to forget...
Posted by Sunny @ 10:41 PM
Hahaha, kaoz...Everything changed so fast!!! I remembered taking 243 to the old side just the day before yesterday sia! Then go deploy for 2 days only...Nearly lost my way home man...LoL~! Walk for quite long then found my bus...But was taking it granted last time, I even forgot shall I take the White lane or the Green lane to reach home faster sia...LoL~!! Blur cock me...
Hmmm, time sure flies past on me really fast, finally its the end of deployment liao, today's off quite short, tomorrow must go back camp by 8 in the morning liao...So Sian, for the stupid parade only...
Was trying to change my appointment tomorrow to a later timing cozz my timing clashes with my appointment...Fucked up, I excuse boots for 1 damn month and now they are asking me to wear it for the parade...Shit man...
Hmmm, just got promoted again, now is CPL liao...Hahaha...Must waste money to go sew the rank again...Lazy...Well, try to relax as much as I can today le...Got nothing to do, am looking forward to saturday only...Geez, really misses them alot sia...
Posted by Sunny @ 4:44 PM
Hmmm, kinda understand me for abit more...I am lonely guy, I can't talk for more than 2 mins none stop, I won't start a conversation unless you talk to me first and keep asking me questions, I like to give people the wrong direction when they come asking me the way, haha...
Today is another off day, went straight home from camp, never go anywhere...Nobody is free, chat on the MSN for awhile then watched Naruto the movie 2, nice...Then clean up this dirty phone I found...Well, basically it was stuff with fur...Dog fur probably as I saw some photo which this guy *supposingly the owner* and this dog...
Then after that came online to blog loh, hmmmm, actually wanted to go funan, but its too late liao, the shops will close even before I reach there...And kinda lazy too...Haha...
Well, quite an interesting topic I wanna start today, was smoking last night while reading the papers for soccer tips...No lah, was just plain reading then stumble across this article about this girl got beaten up by a gang of guys...
WTF, see how the world has changed...Children sure need to be caned since young, if not...Look at my brother for the result...Rebellion until parents didn't know how to control them anymore, irresponsible, you bring them out to this world then teach them lah...
Okie back to the article, poor girl got beaten up, the whole thing was captured on a camera phone and published...Don't know where la, but I think by now it has been removed le ba...
This is the second time I had been reading about this kinda cases on the paper le...Hmmm, is it the technology to be blamed? Or shall we blame the parents? Or even your teachers from school? Hmmmm....I remembered that such cases will only happened in Japan...
Haha...Wah Lau, nowadays the kids really Long Stream Back Wave Push Front Wave sia...Haha, I also don't the meaning of the phrase, its just a chinese saying lah, or shall I say one mountain also got one mountain high? Blah...
Hmmm, just abit disappointed in the citizens of this "FINE" country...Haven't start war with other country we ourselves having dispute among each other...Fighting for girlfriends/ boyfriends, fighting for taxi/ bus, fighting for whats your and mine thingy...
Hmmmm...Hope that the government and the police force can work harder to cut down on the crime rate lor...Haha, am I getting more and more ah bei liao or what, when the hell will a care free person like me care about all those man? Maybe I am too "Kind" liao ba? LoL~!!!
Posted by Sunny @ 8:48 PM
As the title said...Woke up in the morning in Sembawang Wharf at 9, although I am suppose to wake up at 8 but you know, overslept...Then book out from there after I bath as I got cryo. appointment later in the afternoon...
But something happened, while wearing my shirt, I relaise that I never bring Ez-link, plus, I don't have any coins on me...Oh my godness...But luckily got some cash, so went over to change...
Then walk all the way out, man, never tot the bus stop to be so far and I mean FAR away...It was like a 20 mins walk from my base out to the bus stop, took 169, qaited for it for quite long, but the uncle is friendly, very friendly indeed, he greeted me as I asked him how much I had to pay...
Then off I go to a quite familiar place, Causeway Point, still remember the Meat Ball Noodles there, nice~
After that changed to take 963 to her place cozz I wanted to take 75 back to camp, but my coins isn't enough, so walked all the way over to the coffee shop, as the mama shop near her place was not open yet...
Went back to camp, changed, eat cup noodles then set off to DSO Building, Wooo, you won't believe what I found, just as I sat down on the upper deck, right beside me was a Motorola V3, WOW!
First time in my life I found a phone on any other vehicle you can name...Hahaha, then started to think, am quite lucky this few weeks, maybe thats what they called a blessing in disguise ba, I lost my girlfriend...
But I found money and *NEW* Handphone, well, have to admit that life will never be perfect...Haha...Finding hundred and one reasons now to delay my time to go back for deployment...My latest time to reach there is 6 but to hell man...Just tell him I can't catch any bus or cab cozz now is peak period loh...Hahaha, clever right?
Okie lah, after sharing my day with you, hope you enjoy and share my little feelings of happiness together ba...Can't wait for next saturday to come...Going to Zoo with ITE friends, yeah, can see them again liao, but wonder will they buy me presents? You all owe my hor, I don't care... :p Sometime must be thick skinned for abit...Only received a mug from you guys since ITE hor!
Hahahaha, okie, lah...thats all for today le, have to faster finish up my food and rush back to camp liao...Thanks for saying you miss me last night...I don't care whether is "missy missy" or "miss miss...", i treat it as you miss me~ People must look on the bright side right?
Thank god, my few days was happy...Hope that my everyday onwards will be like this...Oh ya, forgot to tell you all this, I board 198 after my cryo., the whole bus smell like shit mah...Someone just poo in his pants...2 suspects, a very fat guy and a very old uncle...But the fat guy seems to be more suspicious, the uncle was with me all the way to Jurong West st 50++, but that guy drop off at Science Centre...After he dropped off, the smell thinnen...I think its either he step on shit and wanted to clean up his shoe at science centre as the people boarding the bus is getting more...
Hmmm, whatever, I said what I wanted to say and messaged those I wanted to messaged and I am contented with my day...Thats all le...Bye~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Posted by Sunny @ 4:03 PM
wahahah, going mad soon, so happy after calculating my leave offs, got excuse 1 month foot wear, means no SOC nor IPPT, YEAH~!!! Nevermind that, actually got appointment today, but blur me, totally forgot about...Miss it and book another date which is on the 15 thats 2 days from now~!!
Me on duty on the 15, means off again~! Then 16 also another off~! HAhaaha, then on the 20 when we finish our deployment, another appointment~! woohooo shiok ah~! But so sad, can't make it on saturday...Hmmm...
This few days very happy, win quite alot, betting soccer again, well, since I have no where to spend the money, why not just play a few matches? Hmmmm, dreamt of the past last night then wake up to find that you are not there anymore...
The feeling sucks...Is it that taking in another love to replace the loved works? Hmmmm, feel like getting a girlfriend, but on the other hand, don't feel like getting one...How leh?
Well, nothing much to blog today...Oh ya on more thing, stupid me left my PSP in the bunk during deployment, so scary...Wanna call my friend to keep for me first, but found out I left my handphone in the cupboard, then wanna comms him my comm set battery run dry...Some more rain...Wth...So suay...
But lucky it was still there when I go back, haha...Hmmm, think will blog til here liao...Will update again if something new comes up...See ya...
Posted by Sunny @ 4:48 PM
Okie, feel like adding another blog before going to bed, have to wake up early as usual tomorrow...Deployment ends on the 20 June...Can't wait for that day to come...Quite tired of it actually...
Comes to think of it, although the newspaper once introduced about our battalion on Protection of Installations a.k.a POI, still not many people have any idea on what I am actually doing...It all started when they caught the terrorists trying to bomb different parts of Singapore...One of them said that their plan is to bomb 4 main parts of Singapore where is important to our country's economy growth...They are Jurong Island, Sembawang Wharf, Exxon Mobile and Changi Airport...
Thats is why the Government chosen our unit 6 SIR to protect and keep each and every kins safe from terrorist attacks...So to explain in simpler terms, our duty is to protect the kins from intrusion of terrorists...
And got a quite sad news today from my friend, one of my friend from the police, something bad happened to him...This drug addict came to the station to lodge a report for what I don't know, when they found him quite suspicious, they checked him, and found some syringes in his pocket...As he was trying to escape, he used the syringe to attack my friend, although my friend dodged the attack, he still kena poke abit by it...
They caught the suspect, and my friend were sent to the hospital for various check ups, they did a blood test on him and he was clean, but for the HIV one, has to wait for 6 months before they can get the results as HIV virus will start to form only after 6 months...
He is young lad with bright future, now serving as a NSF in the police...And most importantly, he is still a virgin...Haven't tried that thing before, so lets just pray that nothing happens to him ba...Just wanna say, he still have a bunch of buddies to be by him, so don't worry too much~! ;)
Stupid idiot, got drug in his pocket still go find trouble for himself, hope that he suffer in prison and hell for the rest of his life...Useless piece of shit! Mother give birth to you to waste your life like that...Haha, like saying myself, I also wasted money on smoking sia...So maybe I don't have the right to scold him like that...
Something happy to share, she is back from Korea liao~ Haha, get ready to go take our presents~!! see ya around in another 1 day time~! 2 days work 1 day off...Freak, can't even book my driving lessons...Don't even have a proper time schedule how to book sia...
Posted by Sunny @ 12:11 AM
Hey Hey~! I am home again, so shiok, go work one day only come back liao...Tomorrow is my granny birthday, but can't attend...must work...Sian...
Today is a Saturday, and its raining, so sian, feel like going out, but all friends like not free...Work ones work, go oversea ones go oversea, don't WANNA reply ones don't WANNA reply...Hmmm, looks like its another day at home watching anime ba...Haha...
So angry, Hunter X Hunter took me one whole week to finish dowmnloading, but its not full, have to go find the last 8 episodes...Anyone has any idea where to find em?
Have to find Naruto the movie 2 also, and maybe Scary Movie 4...Wahaha, had a small conflict with Kong Yoeng yesterday, and still not talking with each other, I can't believe theres someone out there who can't take small jokes...
Its nothing big actually, time will ease his anger ba...Haha...I WANNA GO OUT TODAY, FASTER, ANYONE! JUST CALL ME...
Hungry, go find food liao...Maybe meeting friend for dinner tonight ba, wahahha, candle light with old flame...Woooh...Just joking...haha
Posted by Sunny @ 3:01 PM
Yesterday was my birthday...First of all, wanna curse myself for coming home so late, as its way past 12 so its consider 09/06/06...OMG...
Then talk about the small operation, should called it the "Dermatology", now I shall describe what they did to me...First, they use this half-sized operation knife to scrap away my dead skins, felt quite nice, like abit of itch and the feeling of people rumbing on your bruises...Then, they use this liquid nitrogen to spray at the wounds...Felt quite pinchy, but no as bad as what they trying to convey...The room was filled with people when I got in, I was like..."wah, is it really that serious? so many stand bys are there as if its a very major operation like that."
And all of them are females... :)
One of them start explaining about the things they are gonna do to me and the other one talks about my condition and explain to me what really happened...Here it goes, "chicken eye" is what they call it...its dirt on the floor and if one walk around bare footed and got contact with the dirt, it stay on your skin and wait for the time to strike, like if you have any open wounds then it will infiltrate into your immune system, it acts like AIDS virus where it morph into another form which is similar to your other cells that is why your immune system can't recognise it...
Its doesn't have a cure, and it will come back! *SHIT*
What we can do now is to remove the root inside your sole and pray that it didn't spread, its contagious...So try not to play with it although its fun to feel the small hard lump on your sole, as you might use your hands to scratch your face or any other open wound areas...
When you discover any small lump growing, seek treatment fast, don't drag...And when you found that you have wart, start wearing slippers when you walk around your homes, as you do not want it to spread to your family members, don't share towels or floor mat...wear your slipper when you are even bathing, but tap both your feet and slipper dry after you finish...Wash your slippers with detol or any other germ killers everyday if possible too...
Man, she just go on and on while she slowly scraping my skins...During spraying the L.N, I got praised, she said not many can tolerate the pain, but its really not that painful...Seriously! Then the other one start to laugh at me, saying "So many ladies around, painful also must act like its not mah" p.s >:p minus 1 for her!
Then the staff nurse keep asking me "painful mah? painful mah?" Maybe she see my wound very "Erk!" ba? I don't know...I haven't been looking at them since, but man, I sure feel relief after that as I can finally walk normally without feeling that "hump" under my feet...
But have to go back for another 2 or 3 times to clear it completely, and yeah, got MC...Excuse footwear for one whole month, so that means I am not deploying outside but staying in the OPs room as a runner le...Haha...
Well, thats all for the morning, after the 3 to 4 hours in the DSO building, I went home...Played "Monster Hunter" *my new PSP game, it rocks!* for awhile, then Wai Leong called, ask me to go out with him...So we went Jurong Point only as it wasn't early liao, watched "The Cars", its nice, funny and intersting...After that here I am, sitting down to blog and Grrr, miss my birthday blogging...
Haha, btw forgot to tell you guess my situation now, I can walk but not run, can wear shoe but not for long, have to air them...Wash them with this purple liquid to clear the bacteria...Most importantly, its not that painful le...Thanks for the concern my firends, especially Bon Bon, haha...Love you the most! Feel so lucky to have friends like you...And to Jessie, thanks for not knowing that I have "wart" until today...And for everyone who have the slightest of concern for me~!
I love all of you, and oh ya, thanks for you all for wasting that time to greet me "Happy Birthday", I know I am not forgotten~ To "Her" thanks for being the first to stay up and message the night before...Love you~
Okie, thats all for the mushy mushy part, back to SW tomorrow, hope that I get well soon and the wart thingy don't attack me after I ORDed, its not cheap to go for "Dermatology" when I am a civilian you know...Hmmmm...Good Night, I go sleep liao...Its a new day tomorrow and I am looking forward to that because its one day closer to the day I found my love~ Whoever you are, you can run but you can't hide~ Hiak Hiak Hiak~
Posted by Sunny @ 1:01 AM
Hahaha...Crap, was on the way home just now...Took the train, missed the first one so I waited for nearly 5 minutes for another one to come...Then I board it, not crowded but due to this big size brother hogging the center of the train, so I have to move to the side, then my bag hit this girl's buttock...
She turned around looking so stunt, she was giving those "OMG, finally someone is noticing me!" kinda face...Eyes with flame staring straight at me...While poor me, knew that my bag hit something...So I turned around to just take a look...
My god, luckily just my bag, if my hands really accidentally kena push to touch her, I am done for it...Haha
Talking about molest, I was molest by this "GUY", ya...Guy, where? In Sembawang Wharf...I was lying down on my bed which is on the top deck, it was dark and late at night, suddenly, I felt this trembling of the bed, like someone is climbing up...
There you go, the first place he touched was my *ahem, private part...He press it down somemore...I jumped up shocked!
To be continued... :p
Wahahaha, bluff you one lah, he did touched me there, but it was only my platoon mate
Posted by Sunny @ 5:07 PM
Hahaha...Finally am home~!!! Mna, tomorrow must go back liao, deploying at Sembawang Wharve is not bad, the bunk condition is good, fully air-conditioned, then the pantry is just beside, not only that, arm skote, briefing room are all in one floor, nice~!!!
The only thing there is that we working 2 days off 1 day, off kena taken, sunday then come out...hmmm, but very relax...Easy to catch people, I anyhow petrol around also caught 4 times people taking pictures around the restricted area...And there are lots of Ang Mohs~ From Autralian to New Zealandians (*Haha*) and don't forget the Americans...
Lots of bbig size babes also...They are all sailors, the shops there are nice too, selling lots of cheap branded stuff, all duty free~
Well, she reached Korea already by now I think, can't wait for what she is buying for us~! Hahaha...Maybe like Mr. Cheng like that, some key chains...I don't mind, at least the idea of giving us a gift from there is there~
Hmmm, kinda feeling weird, been thinking of alot of things alot, planning alot too...Maybe the relaxing time during deployment is a blessing in disguise? Giving me amper time to think of what I really wanted...
Hmmm, what really makes me feel weird is how fast time flies, I am already a one year soldier...Then all the flash backs came back, those who accompanied me to camp fpr the first day, Thank You, for those who worried about me when I am not home for so long, Thank You. For those who had missed me when I am gone, Thank You...And lastly, for those who had been through all those hardships together, giving me encouragements...Thank You~!!!!
Now that all the old specs, old platoon mates and some officers who are either posted out or ORDed, I will never forget all of you, really thank you for all the good times and encouragement you gave since the first day I enlisted...
I grew up alot, changed alot too...Just hope that my life will be better from now on, but first, getting a license and a wife (*Car*) is my first piority, then career and a nice and sweet girlfriend at the same time...
Wish me luck for all the challenges I set for myself~ Gotta go le, today is my lunar birthday, mom cooked "Mee Sua" for me~~
Hee, 22 years old liao loh~~~8 June~~~faster come faster come FASTER COME~!!!!! Oh, and by the way...Don't cry, all those things comes from the heart, maybe not now, but one day, things will get better...The one thing important in relationship is communication, and I knows you lack that...Learnt from past experiences...Become a better person...Hope you get what I trying to convey...Take Care...
Posted by Sunny @ 4:19 PM
Please...Go back deep into my heart and go hide somewhere inside my head...don't let my memories find you...Feel like banging my head on the wall until I forget everything...
SO frustrating now...Shit, why must everything he said be so accurate? I can't seem to control my anger, can't seem to control myself from thinking and thinking...Lost control of myself totally...
Tried to sleep, but can't...Whole body very hot, very angry...Told myself to let it go, but you know..That me inside doesn't want to lose...Personality splitting...Demon and Angel forming in me...
Time heals? Fuck time then...No matter how long it takes, she will always be with you...It will just be taken over by the other...So maybe that proofs that you can't forget one until you found another one...Thats my conclusion...
What the FUCK did I did wrong to you? Time brought us apart, I thought our love were strong all along...I TRUSTED you...I finally TRUSTED you...And there I got this kinda treatment...FUCK Fairness, is it fair for me then? To have my girlfriend snatched away while I was away in the army...
CURSE MYSELF...CURSE MY JUDGEMENTS...Seem like I always pick the wrong one...HAhahaa...So funny of me to type like this...I am once again falling in between Forgiveness and Hatred...Freaking memories, I hope I forgets them soon...
Whats the point of remembering all those things we done in the past? You won't come back...Hmmmmm, what am I doing...Sorry, just wanna vent my anger out, maybe it helps myself a little? ahhaha, feeling better now...Sorry for all those commotion on top...Can't just ignore them...
All I wanna say is I haven't forgot...SO much things she said, it all still in my mind...Be my bride eh...
Posted by Sunny @ 2:12 AM
Hai, don't know why...Kinda sad this few days, maybe is after seeing your new msn nick ba...Btw, went for my cryo again today, when I reach the lobby, I tot theres a outbreak of some serious virus, all of them wearing this funny jumpsuit type of clothes then cover their mouth...
Have to question me and register liao then let me in, some more I am half an hour late for my appointment liao...Haha, I like cryo alot, and its getting more and more painful each time...Guess its healing soon ba, the root is being forced out more each time they freeze it...
Hmmm, just wanna let you know...I let you go because I love you, and I love you still...So please, I won't want you to become like this...Reputation to a lady is important, so don't use that kinda nick, although it may not mean the way I am thinking...But its really not very nice...Love yourself before you can love others...
我一直坐在咖啡厅的角落
没有人发现我还在难过
其实早就已经忘了怎么说
就算再怎么舍不得
你还是走了
我还不想承认这事实
怎么会变成这个样子
没有了
我真的什么都没有了
就象一个废人
回家的路上我哭了
眼泪再一次崩溃了
无能为力这样走着
再也不敢骄傲奢求了
我还能够说些什么
我还能够做些什么
我好希望你会听见
因为爱你我让你走了
我让你走了baby
我一直坐在咖啡厅的角落
没有人发现我还在难过
其实早就已经忘了怎么说
就算再怎么舍不得
你还是走了
我还不想承认这事实
怎么会变成这个样子
没有了
我真的什么都没有了
就象一个废人
回家的路上我哭了
眼泪再一次崩溃了
无能为力这样走着
再也不敢骄傲奢求了
我还能够说些什么
我还能够做些什么
我好希望你会听见
因为爱你我让你走了
回家的路上我哭了
眼泪再一次崩溃了
无能为力这样走着
再也不敢骄傲奢求了
我还能够说些什么
我还能够做些什么
我好希望你会听见
因为爱你我让你走了
我让你走了baby
Remember this, I love you...thats why I let you go...And because I trust him to take great care of you, not for you to become like that...You are not that kinda girl to act like this...Hope you understand what I trying to convey...Will always be here for you, as a friend, as an ex and as an elder brother... :)
Posted by Sunny @ 10:54 PM
Hai~~~ At home so sian, I rather go back camp leh...Nothing to do, nowhere to go, at least in camp got friends to chit chat time pass faster there, outside...Keep sticking myself to the computer only...
Went for fortune telling at Boon Lay, it was my grand mother's friend, whereby the medium try to invite god to possess him...He said I this few weeks must try to keep my pocket tight, cozz near future, I will need the money for something important...Then ask me to control my emotion don't keep getting angry over small stuff, then he start mubbling something I don't understand...Saying my road is very hard, very rocky...So everything must take it lightly, stay strong, because in my previous life, I do alot of bad things, so have to pay back in this life...
WTF, I can't stop myself from doing bad things in the pass right~!? Why shouldn't they learn to forgive and forgets too? Then he use this paint bursh to dot and red dot inbetween my forehead, then use this seal thingy to chop a seal on the back of my shirt...
Wow, he quite skillful sia, very accurate, he even ask me not to rush into things, slowly slowly cozz my love line is not here yet, I may have lost someone important, but he say one day, I will meet up with this very long lost contact friend, and start a very nice story with her...Hahaha, Then ask me not to wait for her, find her instead...
I was like thinking...How? Hahaha, then this silly sister of mine, so cute, she still owe me a birthday present, then while paying, she found that her account not enough money liao...Then she called me to transfer her money...Hhaha, might as well I go buy the thing myself right? LoL~!!!
Posted by Sunny @ 5:18 PM
So many things I wanna tell you, so much so much I haven't finish...Time pull us apart...And yet I have so much time now...Hahaha, what a joke right? I had alot alot of things I wanna say everytime when we speak, but I know I can't...I have to keep them inside and seal them up...Feeling Envious, Jealous, Terrible, angry at myself for being weak and fragile, why can't I just look forward? They say Germinis are tempremental, but am I such kind? Maybe an exception? Hmmm...One can't explain why one's love is so so so strong, still staying strong even though there is no results for such persuade anymore...I don't wanna break up a perfect relationship again, but I know even if I want, I can't...Got nowhere to throw all those emotions, so maybe heres the place...
Hmmm, its another brand new day tomorrow, a day closer to ORD, a day closer to my new realtionship and finally a day closer to forget...
Posted by Sunny @ 10:41 PM
Hahaha, kaoz...Everything changed so fast!!! I remembered taking 243 to the old side just the day before yesterday sia! Then go deploy for 2 days only...Nearly lost my way home man...LoL~! Walk for quite long then found my bus...But was taking it granted last time, I even forgot shall I take the White lane or the Green lane to reach home faster sia...LoL~!! Blur cock me...
Hmmm, time sure flies past on me really fast, finally its the end of deployment liao, today's off quite short, tomorrow must go back camp by 8 in the morning liao...So Sian, for the stupid parade only...
Was trying to change my appointment tomorrow to a later timing cozz my timing clashes with my appointment...Fucked up, I excuse boots for 1 damn month and now they are asking me to wear it for the parade...Shit man...
Hmmm, just got promoted again, now is CPL liao...Hahaha...Must waste money to go sew the rank again...Lazy...Well, try to relax as much as I can today le...Got nothing to do, am looking forward to saturday only...Geez, really misses them alot sia...
Posted by Sunny @ 4:44 PM
Hmmm, kinda understand me for abit more...I am lonely guy, I can't talk for more than 2 mins none stop, I won't start a conversation unless you talk to me first and keep asking me questions, I like to give people the wrong direction when they come asking me the way, haha...
Today is another off day, went straight home from camp, never go anywhere...Nobody is free, chat on the MSN for awhile then watched Naruto the movie 2, nice...Then clean up this dirty phone I found...Well, basically it was stuff with fur...Dog fur probably as I saw some photo which this guy *supposingly the owner* and this dog...
Then after that came online to blog loh, hmmmm, actually wanted to go funan, but its too late liao, the shops will close even before I reach there...And kinda lazy too...Haha...
Well, quite an interesting topic I wanna start today, was smoking last night while reading the papers for soccer tips...No lah, was just plain reading then stumble across this article about this girl got beaten up by a gang of guys...
WTF, see how the world has changed...Children sure need to be caned since young, if not...Look at my brother for the result...Rebellion until parents didn't know how to control them anymore, irresponsible, you bring them out to this world then teach them lah...
Okie back to the article, poor girl got beaten up, the whole thing was captured on a camera phone and published...Don't know where la, but I think by now it has been removed le ba...
This is the second time I had been reading about this kinda cases on the paper le...Hmmm, is it the technology to be blamed? Or shall we blame the parents? Or even your teachers from school? Hmmmm....I remembered that such cases will only happened in Japan...
Haha...Wah Lau, nowadays the kids really Long Stream Back Wave Push Front Wave sia...Haha, I also don't the meaning of the phrase, its just a chinese saying lah, or shall I say one mountain also got one mountain high? Blah...
Hmmm, just abit disappointed in the citizens of this "FINE" country...Haven't start war with other country we ourselves having dispute among each other...Fighting for girlfriends/ boyfriends, fighting for taxi/ bus, fighting for whats your and mine thingy...
Hmmmm...Hope that the government and the police force can work harder to cut down on the crime rate lor...Haha, am I getting more and more ah bei liao or what, when the hell will a care free person like me care about all those man? Maybe I am too "Kind" liao ba? LoL~!!!
Posted by Sunny @ 8:48 PM
As the title said...Woke up in the morning in Sembawang Wharf at 9, although I am suppose to wake up at 8 but you know, overslept...Then book out from there after I bath as I got cryo. appointment later in the afternoon...
But something happened, while wearing my shirt, I relaise that I never bring Ez-link, plus, I don't have any coins on me...Oh my godness...But luckily got some cash, so went over to change...
Then walk all the way out, man, never tot the bus stop to be so far and I mean FAR away...It was like a 20 mins walk from my base out to the bus stop, took 169, qaited for it for quite long, but the uncle is friendly, very friendly indeed, he greeted me as I asked him how much I had to pay...
Then off I go to a quite familiar place, Causeway Point, still remember the Meat Ball Noodles there, nice~
After that changed to take 963 to her place cozz I wanted to take 75 back to camp, but my coins isn't enough, so walked all the way over to the coffee shop, as the mama shop near her place was not open yet...
Went back to camp, changed, eat cup noodles then set off to DSO Building, Wooo, you won't believe what I found, just as I sat down on the upper deck, right beside me was a Motorola V3, WOW!
First time in my life I found a phone on any other vehicle you can name...Hahaha, then started to think, am quite lucky this few weeks, maybe thats what they called a blessing in disguise ba, I lost my girlfriend...
But I found money and *NEW* Handphone, well, have to admit that life will never be perfect...Haha...Finding hundred and one reasons now to delay my time to go back for deployment...My latest time to reach there is 6 but to hell man...Just tell him I can't catch any bus or cab cozz now is peak period loh...Hahaha, clever right?
Okie lah, after sharing my day with you, hope you enjoy and share my little feelings of happiness together ba...Can't wait for next saturday to come...Going to Zoo with ITE friends, yeah, can see them again liao, but wonder will they buy me presents? You all owe my hor, I don't care... :p Sometime must be thick skinned for abit...Only received a mug from you guys since ITE hor!
Hahahaha, okie, lah...thats all for today le, have to faster finish up my food and rush back to camp liao...Thanks for saying you miss me last night...I don't care whether is "missy missy" or "miss miss...", i treat it as you miss me~ People must look on the bright side right?
Thank god, my few days was happy...Hope that my everyday onwards will be like this...Oh ya, forgot to tell you all this, I board 198 after my cryo., the whole bus smell like shit mah...Someone just poo in his pants...2 suspects, a very fat guy and a very old uncle...But the fat guy seems to be more suspicious, the uncle was with me all the way to Jurong West st 50++, but that guy drop off at Science Centre...After he dropped off, the smell thinnen...I think its either he step on shit and wanted to clean up his shoe at science centre as the people boarding the bus is getting more...
Hmmm, whatever, I said what I wanted to say and messaged those I wanted to messaged and I am contented with my day...Thats all le...Bye~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Posted by Sunny @ 4:03 PM
wahahah, going mad soon, so happy after calculating my leave offs, got excuse 1 month foot wear, means no SOC nor IPPT, YEAH~!!! Nevermind that, actually got appointment today, but blur me, totally forgot about...Miss it and book another date which is on the 15 thats 2 days from now~!!
Me on duty on the 15, means off again~! Then 16 also another off~! HAhaaha, then on the 20 when we finish our deployment, another appointment~! woohooo shiok ah~! But so sad, can't make it on saturday...Hmmm...
This few days very happy, win quite alot, betting soccer again, well, since I have no where to spend the money, why not just play a few matches? Hmmmm, dreamt of the past last night then wake up to find that you are not there anymore...
The feeling sucks...Is it that taking in another love to replace the loved works? Hmmmm, feel like getting a girlfriend, but on the other hand, don't feel like getting one...How leh?
Well, nothing much to blog today...Oh ya on more thing, stupid me left my PSP in the bunk during deployment, so scary...Wanna call my friend to keep for me first, but found out I left my handphone in the cupboard, then wanna comms him my comm set battery run dry...Some more rain...Wth...So suay...
But lucky it was still there when I go back, haha...Hmmm, think will blog til here liao...Will update again if something new comes up...See ya...
Posted by Sunny @ 4:48 PM
Okie, feel like adding another blog before going to bed, have to wake up early as usual tomorrow...Deployment ends on the 20 June...Can't wait for that day to come...Quite tired of it actually...
Comes to think of it, although the newspaper once introduced about our battalion on Protection of Installations a.k.a POI, still not many people have any idea on what I am actually doing...It all started when they caught the terrorists trying to bomb different parts of Singapore...One of them said that their plan is to bomb 4 main parts of Singapore where is important to our country's economy growth...They are Jurong Island, Sembawang Wharf, Exxon Mobile and Changi Airport...
Thats is why the Government chosen our unit 6 SIR to protect and keep each and every kins safe from terrorist attacks...So to explain in simpler terms, our duty is to protect the kins from intrusion of terrorists...
And got a quite sad news today from my friend, one of my friend from the police, something bad happened to him...This drug addict came to the station to lodge a report for what I don't know, when they found him quite suspicious, they checked him, and found some syringes in his pocket...As he was trying to escape, he used the syringe to attack my friend, although my friend dodged the attack, he still kena poke abit by it...
They caught the suspect, and my friend were sent to the hospital for various check ups, they did a blood test on him and he was clean, but for the HIV one, has to wait for 6 months before they can get the results as HIV virus will start to form only after 6 months...
He is young lad with bright future, now serving as a NSF in the police...And most importantly, he is still a virgin...Haven't tried that thing before, so lets just pray that nothing happens to him ba...Just wanna say, he still have a bunch of buddies to be by him, so don't worry too much~! ;)
Stupid idiot, got drug in his pocket still go find trouble for himself, hope that he suffer in prison and hell for the rest of his life...Useless piece of shit! Mother give birth to you to waste your life like that...Haha, like saying myself, I also wasted money on smoking sia...So maybe I don't have the right to scold him like that...
Something happy to share, she is back from Korea liao~ Haha, get ready to go take our presents~!! see ya around in another 1 day time~! 2 days work 1 day off...Freak, can't even book my driving lessons...Don't even have a proper time schedule how to book sia...
Posted by Sunny @ 12:11 AM
Hey Hey~! I am home again, so shiok, go work one day only come back liao...Tomorrow is my granny birthday, but can't attend...must work...Sian...
Today is a Saturday, and its raining, so sian, feel like going out, but all friends like not free...Work ones work, go oversea ones go oversea, don't WANNA reply ones don't WANNA reply...Hmmm, looks like its another day at home watching anime ba...Haha...
So angry, Hunter X Hunter took me one whole week to finish dowmnloading, but its not full, have to go find the last 8 episodes...Anyone has any idea where to find em?
Have to find Naruto the movie 2 also, and maybe Scary Movie 4...Wahaha, had a small conflict with Kong Yoeng yesterday, and still not talking with each other, I can't believe theres someone out there who can't take small jokes...
Its nothing big actually, time will ease his anger ba...Haha...I WANNA GO OUT TODAY, FASTER, ANYONE! JUST CALL ME...
Hungry, go find food liao...Maybe meeting friend for dinner tonight ba, wahahha, candle light with old flame...Woooh...Just joking...haha
Posted by Sunny @ 3:01 PM
Yesterday was my birthday...First of all, wanna curse myself for coming home so late, as its way past 12 so its consider 09/06/06...OMG...
Then talk about the small operation, should called it the "Dermatology", now I shall describe what they did to me...First, they use this half-sized operation knife to scrap away my dead skins, felt quite nice, like abit of itch and the feeling of people rumbing on your bruises...Then, they use this liquid nitrogen to spray at the wounds...Felt quite pinchy, but no as bad as what they trying to convey...The room was filled with people when I got in, I was like..."wah, is it really that serious? so many stand bys are there as if its a very major operation like that."
And all of them are females... :)
One of them start explaining about the things they are gonna do to me and the other one talks about my condition and explain to me what really happened...Here it goes, "chicken eye" is what they call it...its dirt on the floor and if one walk around bare footed and got contact with the dirt, it stay on your skin and wait for the time to strike, like if you have any open wounds then it will infiltrate into your immune system, it acts like AIDS virus where it morph into another form which is similar to your other cells that is why your immune system can't recognise it...
Its doesn't have a cure, and it will come back! *SHIT*
What we can do now is to remove the root inside your sole and pray that it didn't spread, its contagious...So try not to play with it although its fun to feel the small hard lump on your sole, as you might use your hands to scratch your face or any other open wound areas...
When you discover any small lump growing, seek treatment fast, don't drag...And when you found that you have wart, start wearing slippers when you walk around your homes, as you do not want it to spread to your family members, don't share towels or floor mat...wear your slipper when you are even bathing, but tap both your feet and slipper dry after you finish...Wash your slippers with detol or any other germ killers everyday if possible too...
Man, she just go on and on while she slowly scraping my skins...During spraying the L.N, I got praised, she said not many can tolerate the pain, but its really not that painful...Seriously! Then the other one start to laugh at me, saying "So many ladies around, painful also must act like its not mah" p.s >:p minus 1 for her!
Then the staff nurse keep asking me "painful mah? painful mah?" Maybe she see my wound very "Erk!" ba? I don't know...I haven't been looking at them since, but man, I sure feel relief after that as I can finally walk normally without feeling that "hump" under my feet...
But have to go back for another 2 or 3 times to clear it completely, and yeah, got MC...Excuse footwear for one whole month, so that means I am not deploying outside but staying in the OPs room as a runner le...Haha...
Well, thats all for the morning, after the 3 to 4 hours in the DSO building, I went home...Played "Monster Hunter" *my new PSP game, it rocks!* for awhile, then Wai Leong called, ask me to go out with him...So we went Jurong Point only as it wasn't early liao, watched "The Cars", its nice, funny and intersting...After that here I am, sitting down to blog and Grrr, miss my birthday blogging...
Haha, btw forgot to tell you guess my situation now, I can walk but not run, can wear shoe but not for long, have to air them...Wash them with this purple liquid to clear the bacteria...Most importantly, its not that painful le...Thanks for the concern my firends, especially Bon Bon, haha...Love you the most! Feel so lucky to have friends like you...And to Jessie, thanks for not knowing that I have "wart" until today...And for everyone who have the slightest of concern for me~!
I love all of you, and oh ya, thanks for you all for wasting that time to greet me "Happy Birthday", I know I am not forgotten~ To "Her" thanks for being the first to stay up and message the night before...Love you~
Okie, thats all for the mushy mushy part, back to SW tomorrow, hope that I get well soon and the wart thingy don't attack me after I ORDed, its not cheap to go for "Dermatology" when I am a civilian you know...Hmmmm...Good Night, I go sleep liao...Its a new day tomorrow and I am looking forward to that because its one day closer to the day I found my love~ Whoever you are, you can run but you can't hide~ Hiak Hiak Hiak~
Posted by Sunny @ 1:01 AM
Hahaha...Crap, was on the way home just now...Took the train, missed the first one so I waited for nearly 5 minutes for another one to come...Then I board it, not crowded but due to this big size brother hogging the center of the train, so I have to move to the side, then my bag hit this girl's buttock...
She turned around looking so stunt, she was giving those "OMG, finally someone is noticing me!" kinda face...Eyes with flame staring straight at me...While poor me, knew that my bag hit something...So I turned around to just take a look...
My god, luckily just my bag, if my hands really accidentally kena push to touch her, I am done for it...Haha
Talking about molest, I was molest by this "GUY", ya...Guy, where? In Sembawang Wharf...I was lying down on my bed which is on the top deck, it was dark and late at night, suddenly, I felt this trembling of the bed, like someone is climbing up...
There you go, the first place he touched was my *ahem, private part...He press it down somemore...I jumped up shocked!
To be continued... :p
Wahahaha, bluff you one lah, he did touched me there, but it was only my platoon mate
Posted by Sunny @ 5:07 PM
Hahaha...Finally am home~!!! Mna, tomorrow must go back liao, deploying at Sembawang Wharve is not bad, the bunk condition is good, fully air-conditioned, then the pantry is just beside, not only that, arm skote, briefing room are all in one floor, nice~!!!
The only thing there is that we working 2 days off 1 day, off kena taken, sunday then come out...hmmm, but very relax...Easy to catch people, I anyhow petrol around also caught 4 times people taking pictures around the restricted area...And there are lots of Ang Mohs~ From Autralian to New Zealandians (*Haha*) and don't forget the Americans...
Lots of bbig size babes also...They are all sailors, the shops there are nice too, selling lots of cheap branded stuff, all duty free~
Well, she reached Korea already by now I think, can't wait for what she is buying for us~! Hahaha...Maybe like Mr. Cheng like that, some key chains...I don't mind, at least the idea of giving us a gift from there is there~
Hmmm, kinda feeling weird, been thinking of alot of things alot, planning alot too...Maybe the relaxing time during deployment is a blessing in disguise? Giving me amper time to think of what I really wanted...
Hmmm, what really makes me feel weird is how fast time flies, I am already a one year soldier...Then all the flash backs came back, those who accompanied me to camp fpr the first day, Thank You, for those who worried about me when I am not home for so long, Thank You. For those who had missed me when I am gone, Thank You...And lastly, for those who had been through all those hardships together, giving me encouragements...Thank You~!!!!
Now that all the old specs, old platoon mates and some officers who are either posted out or ORDed, I will never forget all of you, really thank you for all the good times and encouragement you gave since the first day I enlisted...
I grew up alot, changed alot too...Just hope that my life will be better from now on, but first, getting a license and a wife (*Car*) is my first piority, then career and a nice and sweet girlfriend at the same time...
Wish me luck for all the challenges I set for myself~ Gotta go le, today is my lunar birthday, mom cooked "Mee Sua" for me~~
Hee, 22 years old liao loh~~~8 June~~~faster come faster come FASTER COME~!!!!! Oh, and by the way...Don't cry, all those things comes from the heart, maybe not now, but one day, things will get better...The one thing important in relationship is communication, and I knows you lack that...Learnt from past experiences...Become a better person...Hope you get what I trying to convey...Take Care...
Posted by Sunny @ 4:19 PM
